im sorry for everything.
There are so many things to apologise and clear up. And I’d just wanna take some time out just to make you see, what is actually happening.
Firstly, im sorry that i havent made a lot of time for you the past week. This new life style is so hard to adapt to so quickly, waking up at 530, doing house chores, cooking in a burning hot kitchen. Its tough to get all these new things down so fast. Let alone make new friends.
It’s not that theyre more important than you. No, Not ever has it been that way. Im sorry for not showing you that you are important in my life. Because you are. Everytime I talk about you to someone, It just makes me feel like we’ve gone through so much together, and will continue on to, and stay strong. I’m sorry im away, that I didnt put in the effort to whatsapp and everything. But i will, like yesterday.
Its not just me, you went off for a soccer game for around 2 plus hours. Why didnt you count that in contributing to us not talking? Is it only me and my time management?
And about the guys. You know i click better with guys, and like i said, they all know I’m in a relationship, and that I love you incredibly. well they might not know that I love you incredibly, but they know im in love. Its so hard to reassure you when you cant talk to me on skype all day, or during the day when im free. But only at night. I wish you could. I do tell you everything that’s going on, and when u said that im not truthful, i didnt know that the truth meant telling you details of a conversation which meant nothing to me.
Trust and believe that you’re the only one. That 2 years ago, when I said, yes i’ll be your girlfriend, and mad a commitment, I meant it with my whole heart, and even now, while we’re trying to weather a storm, I’d still say yes. Once you said, would you ditch me for some super star or something, and my answer was no. The reason behind it is because we both have such a good history together. You’ve been amazing, horrible, excitable, incredible, and I wouldnt change it for anything. And I still wont.
Put your faith and trust in us, in me. Im sorry youre insecure. But never the less, you’ve been the only one, and always will be.
I love you, so much
